Who am I?

I am in the beat of a heart that yearns.
I am in the pain during a child’s birth.
I am in the old leaf falling from a tree.
I am in the prayer riding on the breeze.

I am in the silence that ends the fight.
I am in the wrong done to make it right.
I am in the eyes that light up with smiles.
I am in the memories that haunt at night.

I am in the hand that gives more than asked.
I am in the sweat that completes each task.
I am in the snuggles on a grey, rainy day.
I am in the cheer that’s shouted on the way.

Who am I? I hide; I am hidden; I seek,
I am sought; I reveal and I am revealed.
Forever, like the precious treasure trove,
I am the reason for it all – I am love.

Ramblings on a Maudlin Afternoon

Listening to the leaves whispering in the breeze,
I wait for answers before they can be revealed.
Hoping for the best while bearing the hard fall,
I try to reason; it’s like talking to stone walls.
Searching within the puzzle that’s the Universe,
I come up with nothing like a mirror in the darkness.
Who knows? Even as the skies change colors everyday,
patiently … even as the earth spins madly … I wait.

Sailor of the Stormy Seas

Sailor of the stormy seas

searching with eagle eyes

the horizons and the depths

of waters that have to be kept

free from the pirates of peace.

 

With memories as company,

you sleep but never sleep

in the restless, rocky cradle.

Never certain if it’s going to be

your last; never regretting if it is.

 

Your efforts are in vain

for no one feels your pain.

There’s no support for you.

The terms you committed to were

clear. You serve at your own risk here.

 

Sailor of the stormy seas.

You do not have a right to need.

Gratitude is not for you or your kin.

So, don’t ask what’s in it for you within

their empty hearts – for there’s nothing!

To My Teachers

All roads lead to Rome.
They taught me how to find my way.
A picture is worth a thousand words.
They taught me how to paint it.

All good things come to an end.
They taught me how to start them.
God helps those who help themselves.
They taught me how to make plans.

The grass is greener on the other side.
They taught me how to be satisfied.
In this world, no man is an island.
They taught me how to stay united.

There’s no better time like now.
They taught me how to move on.
Two heads are better than one.
They taught me to work in a team.

When the going is tough, the tough get going.
They taught me to never give up.
People in glass houses shouldn’t throw stones.
They taught me to not be a hypocrite.

I know I can now read a million books.
Or, travel to cities around the world.
But I will always thank my teachers who
changed me from a grain of sand into a pearl.

Missing You

Raindrops shine like snowflakes
in the glare of headlights.
The darkness ahead unravels
a little more as I drive.

Alone with the weeping skies,
swishing wipers for company,
wish there was one for my mind
that could wipe out memories.

Of laughter, and promises of
being together, our moments
of happiness, of your love
and sweet tenderness.

It was easy for you to leave.
To say goodbye as I cried
and wished you’d come back to me
long after the tears had dried.

A Different Kind of Love

The sun may set in the west.
It will never set on our love, my love.
The years do the seasons test.
They can’t test our love, my love.

Even the oceans have boundaries.
Our love is like the limitless skies.
The nights with all their bright lights
can’t blind your face from my eyes

Promises – they are meant to break.
Our love is stronger than mere words.
Life is shortened by inevitable death.
While our love will live on and on.

The Bride

Like morning dew on rose petals, tears line her eyes.
The hint of a smile upon her lips hides the uncertainty inside.
And under the pressures of expectations that are on the rise,
she has to metamorphose into a diamond shining so bright.

For today, she leaves the only family she knows
to embrace another one as part of her fate
while beautiful people in beautiful clothes arrive at her door
to eat, sing, dance, make merry and celebrate.

What does she get when she has given up everything?
Are her dreams and wishes worth nothing?
And should her hopes be laid to rest, unceremoniously
under a pile of social norms and opinions?

Or is she the example of one who is brave
as she sets out into the unfamiliar, uncharted territory
of a new house, new relationships and a new name
to be the half that begins life’s very own story?

Sometimes

Sometimes I
walk on roads
I’ve traveled
to meet
a memory.

Sometimes I
walk the path
less beaten
to meet
an experience.

Sometimes I
walk in the
day’s glow
to see
a shadow.

Sometimes I
walk in the
moon’s light
to see
so clearly.

’tis myself
I seek by
night and day
and I fail
everyday.

Then I look
at your face,
at your smile,
in your eyes
and see – me.

The Reunion – Class of ’64

Like beads on a string,
we were together
through thick and thin.

Riding bikes, sharing things,
pulling braids, running,
playing, laughing, crying.

We couldn’t forget those days
and united in memories,
we return from our parted ways.

To spend this time catching up,
telling our life stories,
comparing grays, remembering stuff.

Like birds of a feather flying
into the sunset with wings
and hearts beating – in unison.

My Friend, My Rainbow

‘Twas in the evening yesterday
That I saw a rainbow on my way.
It waved to me with colors bright,
and a smile that lit up the sky.

Violet, indigo, blue, green, yellow,
orange and red all shouted “Hello!”
It spoke to me of tales of yore
I knew I’d found my pot of gold.

As I laughed and skipped that day,
I followed it to a wonderful place
of happiness and magical fun
in the light of the rosy setting sun.

It walked me home till the gate.
I turned once more to see it wave.
Truth it was, and I knew it too
that the rainbow I had met was – you.

The First Wages

“More! More! I want some more!”
The tiny voice would’ve gone unheard.
I turned to meet an outstretched hand,
a scruffy face and a head full of sand.

I stared down at the beggar child.
His eyes danced, his lips smiled.
His little fingers lined with dirt
held lightly the folds of my shirt.

‘Be gone!” said I, “So unsatisfied.”
The amount I’d given was justified!
Not one extra coin would I disburse
to this depraved lad, this curse!

I glared into his eyes again.
I hoped to see fear, even shame.
But my outburst had been in vain.
His beaming smile did not change.

Instead, in a voice crystal clear,
he spoke to me and I did hear.
“I’m all alone – Oh! Please, please!”
The winds and cold do not cease.

There was a time when I had known
warm caresses – my mother’s own.
And long past the twilight hours,
she’d tell me all about the stars.

She left me all alone one day,
and as she was going – did say,
““Let not the hunger and the cold
make you beg, or sell your soul.

Look for work and you will find
in the fields – something to bind,
or in the big, busy marketplace-
if you work hard, it will pay.

Do not fear for me, my son!
Not far from you will I be gone.
When people tell you I have died,
look for the new star in the sky.””

And so, it’s not alms that I want,
Just a little fare for the “2 Down.”
No more moments I must waste
if I want a job at the marketplace.

Not more than a 2 rupee coin
for the new job I have to join!
But this you will not do for free,
your heavy basket I shall carry.”

I looked down at him again.
His eyes now held only pain.
His proud chin, turned up high,
so full of hope – this little boy.

And every word he said was true.
He was his own living proof.
Undefeated by life’s miseries yet,
he was just like the black cygnet.

And, along with me he did hurry.
My blue basket, for me did carry.
“Here’s the coin! Now rest a while!”
And I saw again – that beautiful smile.

Waiting

Waiting
for you to return
after you say goodbye.

Waiting
for a smile to come
after the tears have dried.

Waiting
to hear “I love you” again
after we end the fight.

Waiting
for the darkness
after turning off the lights.

Waiting
for the dust to settle
after the storm has passed.

Waiting
for time itself
for this too will not last.

They say that life’s
a game and I agree it is –
one – of waiting.